In tears.

I'm grateful to have a job, to have the money we need to pay for things. With that said I completely despise it at this point. I hate the fact that I spent 10 years going to school so that I could graduate and end up doing the same thing I was doing before I went to school. It's killing me on the inside and I don't know what to do about it . About a week ago I got a G.R.E study book and a graduate admissions essay book from the half price book store and I have yet to open them.
    My job search for something better and less painful is vague. I look, I apply and still nothing. I just keep saying to myself one day I'll get an Ace.When will it happen I am becoming so unhappy with current the surroundings. I don't know what else to do. I don't know what I'm doing now. So, I'm left in tears and stuck.